my 1st day paeds attachment

i was given permission by my boss to have a weekly attachment at paeds dept at the hosp..n today is my 1st day there..best nya...got to get back to the hosp makes me very happy.

but, an ooportunity doesnt come without responsibility..going there means ive to prepare myself with more knowledge abt a lot of things..n today ive just proved to my frens and my boss there that i havent prepared enuff...i had difficulties in doing few tasks..luckily my frens and boss r around to help me out...thanx ppl..i promised i will try harder n do it better next time..wish me luck :)

orang dalam, pintu belakang..berat sebelah?

penah guna somebody to get something tak?in short, u didnt go according to a procedure..what is procedure actually?how telus can somebody be when dealing with all the procedures?
ok..i admit , i got to work in my own negeri bcoz somebody helped me out..i didnt ask his help but he insisted to bring me back here coz he pitied my parents..if i leave the state, they will b all alone here..but after that, ive tried my best not to use ppl's help again to get something..it didnt feel nice..it haunted u for such a long time..n u can expect ppl to talk behind ur back for months..or even years..so when i was posted to district which is abt 45 mins away from home, i dont complaint much..(i only started complaining after few months working there coz of something else) n when i applied for a transfer, i didnt go to my sedara who happens to b a big 'somebody' in the admin office to help me out..i left it to fate to decide..n luckily God hears my pray..

so when ppl around me dont stop from using their influences to get something, it really irritates me..dont they realise that we have been talking behind their back for such a long time already?dont they got tired?i personally dah GOD damn tired acting like i dont care in front of them..coz I DO CARE!!

it's abt the post that my specialist offered me last month..i dont want to b perasan, but i knew my paed specialist likes my work when i was attached at the hosp..n since then, she had been very persuassive n supportive abt me taking paeds too..she even complimented me in front of the senior specialist from KL (hehe..yang tu really makes me perasan a bit).
after i lapor diri at KB last month, i had a talk with her, n she assured me that she's choosing me among others for the post..n we just have to wait for the comfirmation letter from admin ppl..but lately my friends who are now working at the hosp told me that there's this one friend of ours (who everyone knew very 'influencing'-did i get the word rite?-) is bz trying to get the same post..i should b calm coz i knew the specialist is on my side..but the head dept is a friend to the gal's father-in-law...n all this while she n her hubby got the best options bcoz of that..it really pissed me off actually..

ive been planning to take an exam with her hubby somewhere after next raya, to further our studies..n ive been trying to b professional in it..but how professional can i b when i hv to b nice with the hubby n b very very fake with the wife?it's exhausting..n i feel like im losing the battle already..what's the point of me taking the exam (n hopefully to pass it with good grades) but i cant get a seat at the hosp , the seat which belongs to me coz my specialist said so?it is so unfair how some ppl can do such things to their own friends..i mean..if u want to use 'ur influence', berpada-pada la...takkan u want everything for urself?pls dont b too self-centered..i dont know how long can i stay acting nice in front of u...so pls behave like others..there's a long queue there n i suggested u to start joining us in it

lazy friday

its friday..
finally i managed to finish reading my 3rd volume ...hv to start with the 4th one coz i told g we should celebrate after i finished at least 2 volumes..ok..im not going according to schedule..am going out for the 2nd celebration tomorrow...

so far today has been a lazy day for me..i wonder what else did i do except for watching tv n chit chatting with mom n few friends on YM..

i read this blog >> www.chanlilian.net pretty amazing blog..love reading her posts n the comments she got..

i guess g wants me to create something like this..oh boy..he kept telling me to set my own website and generate extra income out of it..er...hello...cincai2 boleh la i buat...plus to get ppl hooked with ur blog, u have to update urself with the current issues (politics does attract lots of attention)..n FYI i dont find myself having interest with this political things..coz as far as i concerned it has never been a clean one

books

im not a bookworm..i just read when needed ..thus i just dont understand how some ppl can really get into books..ppl like na, g, my friends etc..
na can read a thick novel, cover-to-cover in just a few hours, n g can read books day n nite without getting bored..impressive eh?

but now, i really have to start reading n revising for my coming exam...eisyk...risau nya..i got 24 volumes of books to read n i just finished 1!!! the exam will b held in early Oct!! oh dear..i really hope i can finish all of them in time.. i think im not the only one who's worried abt it..my parents also risau abt me.. (g pun tak abis2 reminding me abt it)..ok..relax..relax..i'll try my best ok?

last nite g said we are going to celebrate for each volume that i read..Yeayy!! something to boost up my spirit...so now, i kena jadi makin rajin laa :))

want to have all 23 celebrations before i sit my exam next Oct :p

ooh..btw...g is setting up a new website..pretty cool (esp to those who loves travelling like me )

www.bestcollectionofebooks.com

check it out :)

down the memory lane

today, my friend and i went to our former college.we heard rumors that our former lecturer is going somewhere else, so i want to meet him before he left the place.lets just say i banyak dosa dengan dia.
when i was in my learning process, of course la i did things very slowly n often, i had to repeat my works more than twice.this fellow lecturer, i think he noted how slow i was,so he kept 'scolding' me until at one time i really got fed up with him.but then i guess teachers can always sense when their students at their lowest key.so he came to me after class n gave me a note-to-remember. i got quite a few notes to take home actually ...such as :-

• dont waste ur material..make sure things that u do will b perfectly done on ur 1st attempt
• u did well in ur presentation, but please dont speak too fast..u r not catching LRT here

sometimes simple comments like that really get into ur soul n stay there.

i want to apologize to him for my misbehave during my study days n tell him tht i really appreciate what he taught me all this time.but the words just wont come out when i met him today.

last year, i had to apologize to him also bcoz i think i misbehaved in tutorial.but when i meet him, he said he forgot what the hell i was talking about.which scene?he said if he cant remember anything...then it must b nothing..eisyk..i pulak yang malu...was i the one who is being over sensitive for nothing here?