no air...help!!!

check the video clip..check out jordin's eye shadow..cantik kan? dah lama i tak put on make up..i nearly forgot how to do so .. btw...rambut dia tu rebonding ke?nampak cantik je..teringin nak tiru..tapi nk potong rambut dulu..hmm..dh lama dh cakap nk potong..tak terbuat je lagi..somehow i think some ppl ard me prefer to see me with longer hair

today..penat sangat...betul2 rasa macam no air around me..this morning, i went to my former clinic to do my research thingy..not all patient turned up..after having lunch with kak niny, fatin n erma, i rushed back to my clinic..reached there at abt 1.25 pm..solat then rest for awhile..mula2 tu ingat nak baring je jap..alih2 i tertdo dekat setengah jap..bila sedar dh pkol 2.20 pm..i have to go to another clinic for out patient at 2.30..kalut jugak la..luckily my staff dh prepared everything..bila i keluar bilik je, one of them asked...penat eh doktor? alamak..mesti diorg nampak i tdo tadi..malunya

ramai la pulak patient dtg this afternoon..ramai budak2..n one of them bite my finger...geram jugak..dh la kotorkan the floor..nasib baik la anak org..kalau anak sendiri mau dah kena marah dgn i on the spot tadi..bila balik to my clinic, felt so damn exhausted...my staff offer nak tolong punch kan kad i..sbb nk menapak ke tempat punch tu blh tahan jugak jauhnya..kena bukak kasut pulak tu..bagus jugak org nk tlg punch kan..but dont worry..i still balik at 5 pm..tak tipu..

baik kan my staff?ni yg buat i sayang kat diorg ni..dtg awal..balik lambat..kerja tip top..wht else should i wish for?i pray hard for this great team will be together for a long time.. AMIN

i hate teachers

first let me clarify that...i hate today's teachers..not those who have taught me n helped me to be what i am now

just now i got a patient who happened to b the warden for the boarding school tht i visit these few months.i baru je nk buat2 baik..tanya kabar n korek2 info abt the school's prog coz the students told me tht they r having sports n marathon this few days..tetiba je tht warden told me tht the PK HEM tak suka their students attending my clinic for orthodontic purposes..BULLSHIT!!! geramnya saya!! its just a one year project la..n the students are in form 2 n 1..bukan kacau exam year pun..i rasa geram2 je nk cakap balik " Eh, dulu i pun study kat boarding school..i pun buat ortho treatment jugak..i did it when i was in FORM 5..n the specialist gave me TCA every 3 weeks...my teacher tak bising pun..n i still pass my SPM below 10 aggregates..n when i went for matriculation in penang, i still continue my treatment at KB..means every month i have to balik KB with my twin..ok je..i still got good grades for my final matriculation exam n still got offered to do DDS..apa yg masalah sgt? "

what im trying to say is tht..i bukannya genius student ..n with all these dental appointments (which they refered as 'gangguan') it didnt n doesnt affect my study laa..its either u want it or not..the students r very keen for the treatment..so y should u stop them?im pretty sure they r bright students (after all, they r the boarding school students rite?) ..come on la..have some faith in ur students ..am sure they r far wiser than that ,to let their studies go down the drain just bcoz of ortho treatments..

tapi yg i paling geram..since the teachers n wardens very particular abt all these remeh-temeh things, y do they bother abt their own teeth then?if u told ur students not to bother abt hal2 kecantikan..y ask me to repair ur filling at ur anterior tooth?even when it is TOO small to be noticed?i cant help judging them on how selfish they are..n how unfair of them. next time if the teachers come to me n ask me to do treatments on them..i nk decline je..i nk pulangkan paku buah keras kat they all balik..how dare they come n ask me to get earlier ORTHO appointments for their kids when they dont even allow the students to get theirs...shame on them!!!! no wonder there has been tonnes of complaints abt school teachers now..somehow i think they deserved it... ..oopss..sorry kak mc n ery

reject cases again :(

ok..so its my fault..am too anxious to get my patients into the list..sampai kes simple2 pun i show to my specialists..sigh..what to do?im such a helpless and weak person..n i love my patients so much!! they are adorable n i felt guilty if i dont help them out..
today my specialist rejected 1 case n put another 2 in KIV ...penat i pujuk myself..its ok elinny..its not tht she doesnt want to see the case, but they r just not suitable enuff for the research criteria..aduhaii..i hope things will change n she will change her mind abt it..kesian la those patients :(

last nite is my first nite as a permanent locum officer..n i got paid very little coz only got 3 patients..tak pe la..at least i got to watch Dunia Baru..hehe

after got home after such a looooong day, my fren sms me ..he just reached KL. (i tak tanya pun..hehehe..just kidding :p ) ..good for him actually..hope he will hv all the fun there

lousy me...am i?

what a way to celebrate the coming of new year!!

last one hour i was in my specialist room discussing about the research that we are doing currently..ok honestly, i know im not doing so well in it. the research involves 4 districts in my state n my district is the only one not showing any improvement since we went for the workshop!! terrible..i hate it when things not going smooth..n i cant help thinking n analyzing what has gone wrong..

chronologically, the outflow of the story goes like this :-

early Oct '07 : i was told by my specialist that i will represent the district for the research..Yippie!! (things that i regret cheering up for..now)

29-31 Oct '07 : all the participants for the research project had a workshop in KL..which i messed up terribly for turning up late for the class... (sigh)

1-8 Nov '07 : i was busy preparing for another course..(hey i have to deal with SPSS..things that i hv stopped doing since i graduate!!)

11-12 Nov '07 : i attended another course in KL

21-27 Nov '07 : i had my long holiday to abiskan my annual leave (have to...what can i do)

2-6 Dec '07 :i didnt attend work coz i had to join OT, attended a meeting n fall sick at the same time

12-15 Dec '07 : i had to attend another course

24-29 Dec '07 : abiskan my annual leave again..anyway..its Xmas!!

every tuesday i have to go to the specialist's clinic ..but as far as i can remember, i only got to meet my specialist few times within this 2 months..so, what's up with the rest of the Tuesdays? ..i got meeting..she got meeting..she got courses..i fall sick..etc..

ok..that is about the time constrain that i got to deal with..
let's move to the next reason :-

before we attended the workshop, our staff has gone out to get patients..she managed to get 38 when we only need 20!! amazing ehh? but guess what..from that 38 patients we can only use 5 of the cases..the others are not suitable at all for the research..n then, out of the 5, 3 opted out...which left us with 2 subjects only!! from my daily screening, i managed to get another 4 cases...2 still dok diam abt it..but i hope they will agree to join the research soon..

just now my specialist kept reminding me to work harder..i even got a DEADLINE today..by 8th i have to show her all the 7 cases left..adoi..actually i got an appointment that day with my physician..but she so determined that i have to see her on that day..so seems like i have to postpone my appointment laa.. :(

next week..by hook or by crook..i have to go to school and get as many patients as possible..only got 3 days to find them n show to my specialist..

WAAAAAAA!!wish me luck..i need it real bad now :(((