another friend got married!

i was going through friendster when i realised one of my ex-classmate just got married..must b a big one since he works with oil & gas company n make lots of $$...

usually when i knew my friend got married, i got worried coz i havent yet..but somehow this time i felt relief pulak..ok la ..let me tell the story behind it..

it has been nearly 10 years ago..when i was in early form 5..back then, i was a very low-profile gal..i bet a lot of ppl in the school didnt realise my presence there...what the heck..i dont think fame will benefit me in any way...but somehow tiba2 je i rasa mcm glamor skit..initially, when my friends n i passed the dewan selera (boy's section) tiba2 je the boys bising2 , n pointing at me..since they spoke in kelantan dialect, i was hoping my friends tak paham..coz i also tak paham y they did tht..then i noticed, when i crossing a certain group of boys, diorg tiba2 je step aside n let me go first..ok..thts fishy!! i wonder wht hv i done wrong..

until on Valentine's day 1998, while gotong royong, my gal friends found something shocking written on the wall behind our class..some nuts hv put my name n another boy in the class (who happened to b pretty famous in school) in a love sign n quote "cinta 503 '98" ... adoi...bengang nya rasa!!! no wonder la tiba2 je i jadi famous..now everything make sense..as a result, i avoided speaking to him for months..i guessed he noticed abt it..i only spoke to him again 2 months b4 spm, n tht's bcoz we r taking class pic..after tht the rumours settled..

lepas abis spm, i dont give a damn abt him anymore..a few of my friends did call me n give me the updates abt him..he became top student at his uni.good for him, but i dont give a shit..

when i was in year 2, met him during my campus open day..he came to my campus to meet his friends, n i think he didnt know tht i studied there too..it was a shock..n embarassing actually..

then a long pause until he sent me a msg thru friendster a few years later, asking if i still remember him.aiyaa..what kind of question is tht?how can i forget my classmates?no matter how much i hate u..i will always remember u ..then silence again..until tonite i saw his testimonials..ppl are congratulating him on his 'wedding of the year event' walla...

congrats from me too!! n pls know tht i am so happy tht u r married to someone else coz u kept haunting me all these years!!

ppl i hate most

u know what kind of ppl i hate most?

1. liars
2. those who talk behind my back (ok..sometimes i did tht also..can't help it)
3. those who waste other's time

my friend A called me this afternoon, asking me abt our plan to go to rosas's wedding end of this month..told her i cant make it even if i got my car back at tht time coz i got to attend a course a day b4 tht .. she told me abt her get-away holiday after attending the wedding..i dunno wht else did we talk abt , but we came to this part :-

me : sori la..akak ada banyak projek laa

A : projek apa..akak nak kawin ke?

me : eisyk ..ada pulak..byk projek lain lagi..calon pun tak de, mcm mana nak kawin..hehe

A : eh..bukan akak ada banyak calon ke?

me : a'ahh mmg byk calon..calon buat suka2 je .. hehe..awak tu..bila nak kenduri?

A : eh tak de dah kak..ermm..dah putus.. (silent for a while)

me : ooh...errmm..tak pe ..tak pe..kita cari lain..jgn risau..malam masih muda (ala2 nk buat lawak yg tak jadi)

A : a'ahh..hehe


the truth hurts..i desperately wanna know what happened actually..so i asked H, who happens to know abt everything :p

turns out, A's fiance for nearly 1 year plus has decided to break off the engagement, saying 'saya tak pernah menyintai awak' and 'saya bertunang dengan awak pun sbb mak saya'

stupid f**king ass!!! gila ke apa?kan tak pasal2 dah buat aku mencarut kat sini..geram nak marah betul dgn tht guy..H pun bengang gila..i think only crazy ppl will reject someone like A..to me , she is perfect - tall, fair, pretty, sweet , kind ..semua benda2 best la ada kat dia..bodoh piang betul x-tunang dia tu..A devastated abt it..she has been really close with the guy's family..so its really2 hard for her n both families to accept it..

when we were students, A penah citer kat i abt her then bf..nampak sgt dia suka kat laki ni..n from the way she tells, i think this guy pun suka kat dia..but then guys..tambah lagi dah keja n got lots of friends..so kdg2 A jeles jugak esp when he put up his pic with his x-gf in his frenster..i was dumb abt guys too, mind u..so i told her 'relax la..tak de apa2 la tu..diorg kawan je kot' .. n i kept telling myself guys always like that..they never show how much they love a gal..just wait until they lose her..then, baru nk meroyan..

it seems like i was totally wrong..i'm so sorry A for giving u such a stupid advice..i should hv told u to leave him tht day..so u wont feel so miserable today..but one thing for sure, u r not losing so much except for the time u've spent loving him..all of us know a gal like u is a hot stuff..soon u'll get a replacement my dear, someone who is better, much much better than ur loser x-fiance..
n when tht day comes, we will remember abt today n we will have the best laugh of our lives.. u see... those who laugh last..laugh the best...n tht would b US *HUGS**

ur other half

last nite, i chat with an old friend, H..seems like we are in the same boat..both r single n felt miserable abt it..H had a bf last 2 years and nearly got engaged when both families started to interfere in their relationship n ruining it..she was devastated, but the guy was even worse.H had to change her number to get away from him..i guess it is hard to b just friends with ur ex..i thought H had got over it but last nite she said she's been spending a hell lot lately...n it's all because she cannot see the reason why she has to save her money..(she used to save b4 for the wedding)

it really surprised me coz i cant believe a strong, high-spirited gal like her can be so down now ..
i should learn from her story..seriously i should!!

so last nite, we came to a conclusion that we hv to keep our hearts open for anyone..everyone..u never know who is going to knock the door to ur heart..n i mean seriously knocking...

waah..did we sound desperate there?like H said..it's ok to b single ..but having a partner is so much better..there will always be someone u can turn to when u r down, exchange sms, call in the early morning and b4 going to bed, someone(apart from ur parents and family) who u know does care abt u - whether u have taken ur meal, or got sick - , someone who u can picture being at ur side for the rest of ur life , during ups and downs, sharing all ur happiness and sorrow..and someone who is able to accept u for who u r, what u r, and b greatful for it

just let it go

ive been a good fan of cari.com...in there, got lots of problems faced by the cari members..they shared the problems with the viewers so that it will be less burden for them..there's one topic that caught my attention.

the host for the thread was caught in a dilemma..hmm..how shall i put it? ok..we call the writer of this prob as A..A had crush on B (err..actually i forgot whether A is a gal or a guy..assuming A is a gal, so B should be a guy..unless of course A is actually a lesbian, then B would b a gal also :p) A said they had been hanging out together for quite sometime, n one fine day she decided that she should talk abt her feelings to B..once said, all gone..B told her that they are "just friends" ..nothing more than that...so now A is kinda sad abt it.the thread got a lot of viewers and comments..most of them shared the same experiences and support what A did..at least she let it out and now she got confirmation that B is not interested in her..so most of them advised her to just let it go and move on..but i think A is having a rough time to get over it coz she kept posting lyrics of sad songs in there..after that i was so bz that i didnt have the chance to keep track on the thread..but last few days i managed to get back there..well, i can say the thread has gone cold now..i guessed everyone has got over with their problems now..may b they (including the host of the thread) has finally let go of their crush and found someone else..who knows kan?

i read that this Rat year promised almost everyone good fortune in their relationships..had a copy of Malaysian Women's Weekly for February edition..in conjunction with CNY n Valentine's , they put up chinese astrology for the new year and a lot of tips for Valentine's celebration..as far as i can remember , all the zodiac has goody-goody luck this year abt relationships(love and romance) since what they called as "The Flower of Romance" seems to shine on everyone..cool ehh?but the Rooster was warned as we are prone to ROAD ACCIDENTS AND LAWSUITS this year :((
knowing me as the clumsy gal...err...seems like i have to be extra careful on the road..oh..btw, as for Rooster's relationships...i was given this advice : Nurture ur relationship - it's a good time to give each other more space and develop interests of your own.. hmm...sounds like telling me to stop bugging the partner and mind your own business!!!auchhh ..tak fair kan?i havent got a partner yet, n if i found one this year..i cant cling on him too much..isyk...susahnya ..baik tak payah ada kalau cam gitu kan?

eventful week

woww..lamanya tak update blog..
lots of things happened the last few weeks..i even forgot some of it actually..one thing for sure there has been a hell lot of ups and downs..everytime i felt like jotting it down here..i kept refraining myself from doing so..writing (or should i say typing) when i got too emotional will only make me regret abt it later..

so..summing it up..we had raya korban last week..it was great..most of my siblings were home.but my 3rd nephew was sick..high grade fever and it really got us worried abt him..

n oh yes...a day b4 raya, my fren got married!! i tumpang seronok..n she cant stop asking me when it will be my turn ..aduh..tension nya!!

i did locum for the 1st time on the last dec 23rd..just replacing my fren..tp seronok jugak..something different i would say.a bit tiring but when they handed me the payment..terus rasa segar..gosh i sound so materialistic..better get hold of urself elinny!!

my sis n i planned for a trip to Bali mid next year..i just cant wait fot that!everytime i think abt it..i guess the best thing to do now is to do more and more locum..i cant just depend on my monthly salary to save tht much of money.i checked the websites about Bali..the accommodations are quite pricey..i want to go there...i have to go there..so i have to start saving money for it..sounds desperate kan?

now im at kuantan..my nephew got admitted here for dengue...he was on the way back to KL n stopped here for a while.so i got here with my parents straight away..will b here for a couple more of days..

what did i learn in the last few weeks?

we should care for others...if they appreciate for what we did..then we are the lucky ones..if they dont...well...some people does that..no hard feeling :)