sob..sob..sob

i just got back from KL..baru je touched down at 10.20 td...first time naik fireflyz.not so bad laa..lain kali blh naik lg

i pegi KL ari tu..my intention was to send my nephew off to canada..apart from that, its purely family matters..so sorry la my KL friends, tak sempat nk jumpa you all..

talking about my nephew, his name is Syazli..but we called him Baby..tp bila dh besar, we changed it to Bob..but he still proclaimed himself as Baby..hehe..tht day, na took half day off..so at 6 pm, i picked her from her office, then we went to Alamanda to have dinner..we refered to na, our parents, our eldest nephew, Syazwan/Abe and me..had my fav waffle cake.pas tu gi solat kat masjid putrajaya b4 heading to KLIA..lama jugak nk tunggu dia boarding..tp tak pe la..got to spend few hours with Baby ..nnt dh susah nk jumpa budak ni dh..

bila Baby btol2 nak boarding, then my sis, Kak Mc tiba2 je tanya ' eh u all tak sedih ke?kak mc sedih la'..

mula2 tu kitorg bantai gelak je..tp lepas Baby passed the immigration, seeing Kak Mc dok kesat2 air mata, i pun jadi sayu jugak..last2 almost all the ladies hujan..sedih weyy...anak sedara kitorg tu, membesar dpn mata i sbb parents i yg jaga dia n his 2 elder brothers..so we , the aunties n uncles mmg rapat sgt dgn my 1st 3 nephews tu..yg lain2 tu bukan tak rapat, tp yg 1st 3 ni..mmg kitorg jaga btol2..now yg plg kecik among the 3 tu pulak nk fly..jauh ke canada pulak tu..dia tu bukannya sihat sgt..he got knee injuries n dh few times underwent surgery to correct it, but still suffers some pain here n there..ni dok jauh2 ni, risau la jugak..kang dibuatnya lutut dia tu buat hal lagi, saper la nk jaga dia..ada tak pain killer?kat canada tu dh la sejuk..kang aggravate pain, susah pulak..sob..sob..sob...isk, sayu btol bila dipikirkan ..tambah pulak dia ni mmg la sng sakit..dulu masa kecik2, dia kena campak smpi sket lg nk kena pneumonia..so kena admit ada la dlm seminggu..pastu remember my nephew yg kena denggi n admitted kat kuantan ari tu?dia la jugak tu..adoi..risau..risau..

tapi ye la kan..budak2..lama2 nanti, besar jugak..we hv to let them grow..n learn to let them go ..

tp (to my nepews n nieces only ye), if u encounter any prob dgn study ke, financial ke, bf/gf ke (tp yg ni kena consider jugak sket) ..pls let me know..kurang2, kalau pun su lin tak leh tolong, su lin blh at least tlg dgr ur prob..jgn la simpan sorg2 .ok?muah muah muah..sayang u all :)

p/s : i cant upload pics coz ari tu Baby pinjam my cable n i dunno where he kept it..entah2 dia bawak gi canada skali...isykk

anyone missing me?

hello again :)
im still at kuantan..at kak ta's house..course dh abis semalam..audit kat my clinic pun dh setel ..haii...nasib baik la ada staff yg mmg blh diharap utk handle kan audit tu ..masa kursus , i asked my specialist who happened to b one of the speakers (of course la, she is the specialist, what do u expect?) , can i take leave today to go to KL for some family matters, n she said yes..my boss kat KB pun bagi i amik EL..yeay!!! sayang u all :)

regarding the course..it was damn great...kan hani? :)

hani n i were in the same group..so huru hara la group 4 jadinya.hehehe

urusetia tu funny la..in order to avoid ppl from falling asleep during the lectures, and to make the sessions livelier, they buat rules, group mana plg byk bagi soalan lepas lectures, dpt markah..n group yg markah paling sket, kena denda by group yg menang..sounds stupid,but it managed to creep me out..as a result, i didnt doze off at all..something i hv to pat on my shoulder for..jarang tau i tak tertdo masa lecture..hehe..

anyway the lectures were great..really fires up my spirit to further study.hani, aszraf n me got a chance to hv a long talk with Dr Nor Aini Nun Nahar, the paeds dental consultant from HKL ..she's sooooo nice..i first met her when i was a FYDO at the hosp, when she came to assess kak Yus who's on gazzetment..n i adored her straight away..the next day, i met Kak Yus, my long old fren..she's actually a paed specialist already..dulu masa dia on gazzetment, my gang n i tgh attachment kat hosp..so we clicked very very well..kak yus pun join gang kitorg jugak..best btol time tu..sbb kak yus pun mcm budak2 ..now, bila dh jumpa balik, kak yus dh jd full specialist..everyone called her Dr Yus, i dunno what to call her..coz im so used to call her Kak Yus..mcm pelik pulak kalau nk tukar skrg kan?when i wanted to ask a question after her lecture, pun i musykil nk address as apa..last2 panggil je Dr, sng :) but i realised kak Yus senyum je..hehe..she must feel weird too..so now i dh kenal all paeds specialists of zon timur..nice..nice

meeting my old friends Hani n Zarina was great!! pegi mana2 je, mesti sama2..bising pulak tu..ingatkan nk gi tgk midnite movie, tp i guess movie tak bagi kitorg tgk dia..sampai2 je kat cinema, diorg cakap, mana ada midnite movie on weekdays..a'ah kan?iskk...habis plan saya..last2 we spent the 2 nites talking n gossipping smpi tgh malam..byk betul citer nk di catch up among each other.lepas tension pasal keja, personal matters,mcm2 lg laa..hmm..dah lama tak buat mcm ni kan?

the highlight of the course was the presentations from all groups abt behaviour management:non-pharmacological approach..my group, group 4, start aje discussion dh bising2..rehearsal pun mcm nk runtuh bangunan jadinya..tp masa present, i was so nervous, i dunno what i said.cakap pun laju semacam je, n i did miss a few points..mmg nervous coz i was the only one in t-shirts n jeans tht nite..mana nak tau org lain is so skema..semua pakai formal..adoii..after the presentation, i felt bad sgt..takut kalah..but the next day, when they announced the results, suprisingly, our group won!! mcm tak percaya je ..bukan selalu my group blh menang ni :p

congrats to everyone for a job well done

okla..i nk gi mandi..this afternoon am going to take the bus to KL..time to release stress yg ada skit2 lg ni

p/s : hani, aku upload pics lepas balik KB nnt..tak bawak kabel..ok?

jom kursus lagi

esok i kena gi kursus..yippiee!!!

ari ni ada kenduri solat hajat for my nephew who's leaving for canada next week..
haii..nasib baik la anak2 buah semua dh besar...so ringan la skit keja..

tak sangka...anak sedara i dh 3 org masuk U..seems like they were still in primary school yesterday

okla..i nk tgk tv..just nk pesan...while im away...do miss me !!! hehehe

Ana & Ismihan part 5

honestly im bored today..pg td penat sgt..ptg ni boring nak mampus..so meh kita create episod baru pasal Ana & Ismihan

Petang itu, balik je dari keja Ana menghadap mak..perlahan Ana menyusun butir bicaranya.nak korek cerita, kena la pandai2 ..mcm menarik rambut dalam tepung..rambut tak putus, tepung tak berselerak.

"Betul ke Ana tak tau saper yg dtg ari tu?mak ingat nk sorok2 dari mak..."

"laa...betul la.." tegas Ana

"Habis yang Ana awal2 lg setuju tu apesal?tu la mak pelik..mak tgk Ana dok baik dgn si Is tu, alih2 nk bertunang dgn org lain pulak" suara mak lain mcm sket..mcm bengang je dgn Ana.

Alaah...kena lagi..getus hati kecil Ana.

"alaa..mak cakap la..saper yg dtg ari tu?" Ana mengalih topik

"Orang jauh..kawan Ana masa kat Universiti dulu..dulu2 Ana penah bawak dtg umah masa kenduri kawin Along"

bawak dtg kenduri?aik..ada eh?otak Ana ligat berfikir, cuba mengingat kembali teman2 sekampus yang pernah dijemputnya ke rumah dulu..tapi masa Along kawin, time tu cuti sem..tak ramai yg stay kat kampus..kalau yg stay pun cuma utk habiskan tesis mereka..siapa ye?Alin, Zura, Faiz, Geetha..Lin, Mat...eh..yang mana satu ni?seingat Ana tak ramai teman lelaki yg pernah berkunjung ke rumah..cuma Faiz, Adam, Mat dan Chee Wei..takkan si Chee Wei kot..Adam kan couple dgn Zura, tak mungkin dia dtg risik aku pulak..Mat, belum habis final year dh kawin..so tinggal Faiz je la...gulpp...dia ke?

Faiz , kawan Ana yg tak le rapat sgt..setakat biasa2 je..masa mula2 kenal dulu Ana takut2 skit dgn dia sbb muka dia nampak mcm garang..tp lepas mereka sama2 terlibat dalam satu projek kampus, Ana mula mengenali Faiz dgn lebih rapat..tak de la teruk sgt..Ana rasa mereka berdua mmg blh serasi sbb cara mereka agak sama..baru je Ana nk rapat dgn Faiz, kawan2 yg lain dh mula bergosip ttg mereka berdua..since then Ana cuba menjarakkan diri daripada Faiz, bimbang apa saja kemungkinan yg akan timbul ekoran gosip liar itu.lagipun setahu Ana, Faiz sudah punya gf..Ana tak de la tanya dia directly..tu pun member yg cakap..Ana tak suka tanya hal private2 ni ..esp dgn Faiz sbb si Faiz ni tere tak tere, dlm masa 1 jam je, dia dh boleh korek rahsia yg Ana tak penah citer kat org lain ..Ana pun tak perasan, lancar aje mulut ni bercerita...lepas satu, satu cerita terlepas dr mulutnya..so, kalau Ana tanya lebih2, makin panjang la cerita diorg..nnt habis semua rahsia Ana masuk poket Faiz..isk..haru nanti

audit ISO

last monday, bila i attend the monthly meeting..i was shocked to know that we r having audit ISO from 19-24th aug..adoi..kecut perut weh..im not fully prepared to b audited yet!!
lepas tu ari ni, my staff told me..the audit is actually from 19-28..makk aii..makin lama ni..

by rite, next week, i patutnya pegi kursus out of town for 3 days, then take leave for 2 days..ingatkan nak gi jalan2 ke kl..now after all these..mcm tak nk bagi i cuti je .. :(

my specialist kat hosp cakap, if i nak amik cuti on my attachment day, kena bagitau awal2 cos she wants to limit number of patients..kalau 1 week prior, kira awal ke?tp bila check appointment book, nampak gaya mcm ramai je patients next week..hiks..hiks..sedihnya ..tak leh cuti lg :((

y life has to b so hard?

when good things come..semua benda jd good..but when bad things come, semua nya jadi hampeh!!

may b for now, im at the bottom of my life cycle..cannot complaint much..just hv to wait for my wheel of life to b at the top again...i hope..

20.08.2008

when i wrote the date today in my report this morning, i felt funny..

today seems like a special day..

then i remembered , dulu masa b4 convo, while preparing for our graduation night show, my friends and i used to list out the predicted dates for us to get married..initially i chose 20.07.2007..but then i changed to 20.08.2008..hehe..so i was supposed to get married today laa!! :)

anyway...apa i nak cakap td?lupa la pulak...eh..sambung nanti laa

knowing me

last nite na told me, my bro cakap "ramai2 adik abg, lin la yang paling garang"

wahhh..ye ke?i garang ke?rasa mcm dh abis baik dh..haha

so pg td i tanya abg, betul ke i garang? abg cakap "there's time when u got hurt, u tend to b sarcastic"

ooh..itu mmg tak boleh nak deny..i mmg sengaja tu..sbb i tak reti nak naikkan suara..so plg best attack biar org tu sakit ati la..ye la..kalau dia dh sakitkan ati i..mana aci i sorg je yg sakit ati..saper suruh cari pasal dgn saya?

tapi...if i mmg dh betul2 gila2 sakit ati, i wont say anything coz i cant find any other sarcastic words to hurt them..some ppl use curse, but i dont use vulgar words..

so if tiba2 je u found me next to u, not uttering anywords, be ware!! there must b something tht u said/done tht has irritated me to the max..n be careful next time, coz i might pay u back then..heheh

Ana & Ismihan part 4

i bosan ni...macam malas je nk kerja..so layan je la....

Penat otak Lia memerah idea , mencari jalan keluar bagi masalah Ana..

"Mak ko tau tak mama Ismihan nak datang?eh,jap jap..first, first, mak kau tau tak just how serious u r with Ismihan?" tanya Lia

Ana geleng..jelas raut wajahnya yg kusut..kesian pulak Lia tengok..tak boleh nak salahkan Ana jugak..Lia tahu Ana memang naif soal relationships sebegini..antara mereka berdua, bagaikan sudah tiada rahsia..bagi Lia, Ana bagaikan adik kecilnya..kalau ada org yg cuba mengusik, pasti Ana adukan pada Lia..tp skrg masalah Ana bukan lagi kecil seperti yg lazimnya..buntu Lia dibuatnya..

"Apa-apa pun, ko kena cakap kat mak ko..tak tau la, tapi aku rasa jalan terbaik, be transparent..ko cakap kat mak ko elok2..pastu ko pegi cakap kat Ismihan pulak..he has to know tht someone else is trying to steal u from him", tegas Lia

Tiba2 Ana senyum.. spontan menjawab"stealing me from him?i like that..rasa mcm glemer pulak sampai org nk berebut2"

Cepat aje tangan Lia mencubit paha Ana..eisk..budak ni, geramnya aku..sempat lagi tu nk buat lawak..

Berkerut dahi Ana menahan sakit..hehe..tapi betul apa?sebelum ni tak de pulak org nak tackle Ana, tiba2 je 2 org dtg skaligus..waahh..tak glemer ke kalau mcm tu?pergghh..hebatnya Ana!! Ana tersenyum nakal..namun, Ana akur,kata Lia ada betulnya..Ana pun lebih suka be transparent..tapi, Ana tak sanggup nak menatap wajah Ismihan tatkala dia mengetahui cerita sebenar nnt..chat je la..eh, lupa..Ana menepuk dahi sendiri, hari ni Ismihan nak gi out station..alaa...kalau mcm ni, kena call la..aduuh...risaunya..sepanjang Ana kenal Ismihan,belum penah sekalipun Ismihan meninggikan suaranya..tapi kali ini, Ana pasti Ismihan tak mungkin bisa menahan perasaan marahnya..marah..atau kecewa?hmm..susah Ana nak merungkai persoalan itu..haii..entah kenapa sampai jadi begini..2 minggu lepas, semuanya berjalan lancar..Ana senang di samping Ismihan, senang berbicara apa saja dengannya, tapi hari ini semuanya berubah 360 darjah..entah bila timbul bibit sayang antara mereka, Ana juga kurang pasti..yang Ana tahu, perasaan itu tidak lah semanis yang disangkanya sebelum ini.Dulu, Ana fikir kalau kita tengah bercinta, pasti semuanya manis, ye la, we will have a shoulder to cry on (besides our parents)..aneh, tapi kalau difikir-fikirkan semula, mereka berdua sebenarnya tidak pernah bercinta..daripada berkawan..terus aje gatal nak kawin..wahh...pening ni..

what did i do this weekend?

i...BASUH KETA!! siap vacuum n polish my carseats..perghh..am i good or what?
my dad siap perli2 lagi..dia pegi kat blkg keta n said..."ada bau laa...bau wangi" cehhh..sabor je la..i know..i havent washed my car myself for months..lately ayah je yg tlg basuhkan..hehe..ayah siap cakap ..lin sayang keta awal2 je..skrg dh tak sayang dah..sbb tu tak penah nk basuh :p

i got kak jehan her wedding cake..for the majlis menghantar pengantin tomorrow..tadi pegi antar kek tu kat umah kak jie..kak jehan will pick the cake tomorrow ..sampai2 je kat umah kak jie, baru nk turun, kak jie keluar rumah to greet me n tell someone in the house.." ni la ed..nama dia adlin, tapi panggil ed je"

i was like..eh kak jie introduced i kat saper?bukan ke most of her family mmg dh kenal i?ye la..siap penah tdo kat umah kak jie 2 kali dah..rupa2 nya its her husband..baru i ingat, i tak penah jumpa her hubby b4..masa her wedding ari tu, i pegi awal b4 the groom arrived..at one glance, all i can say is that kak jie n her hubby look alike laa..thts good news coz org cakap, pasangan yg ada iras ni, jodoh diorg Insya Allah panjang..AMIN..good looking jugak hubby kak jie..pandai kak jie pilih..in other words, kalau ada somebody who looks like him (n perangai mcm dia jugak), harus i tackle cepat2 :p

wonder tak how does he look?basically mcm ni la.. tall, tanned, wearing glasses, looks educated, sopan,n likes to smile..sepanjang i kat umah tu, dia asyik senyum je..he's a bit quiet ..tp itu la, tak kisah la if u r talkative or not, yg penting smile...it does comfort others.. :)

Ana & Ismihan part 3

its 8.10 am ..woah..let me try writing this in the broad daylight..kalau tak se'best' mcm yg lepas2, means i mmg kena write it at nite je :p

Ana tergamam.apa nak cakap ni?macam mana nak cakap?di hujung corong sana, Ismihan juga tergamam, tidak menyangka reaksi begini yang Ana berikan..kenapa senyap je Ana?say something, please..or Ana sebenarnya sedang ligat memikirkan cara utk menolak cadangannya tadi?

"Weekend ni ye?erm...ok...err...mama Is nak bawak apa2 ke?Ana kena balas apa2 ke nanti?" tanya Ana memecah kesunyian di antara mereka.

Ismihan tersenyum lega, " tak bawak apa2 la..mama saje je nk jumpa, kenal2 Ana "

Sebaik gagang diletakkan, kedua-duanya dilanda perasaan yang jauh berbeza..Ismihan tidak putus2 senyum, memikirkan masa depan yang bakal dihadapi bersama Ana kelak..mindanya mula mencorak apa yang harus dilakukan nanti..pasti banyak persiapan yang harus dibuat..eh, tapi dia tak pernah melamar Ana secara formal..perlu ke?pasti perlu..Ana tu kadang2 bila dia datang angin, boleh tahan juga romantiknya..pasti Ana tertunggu2 saat dilamar seperti yg ditontonnya dlm filem sebelum ini..Ismihan masih ingat, Ana pernah cakap dia paling suka cara melamar dalam cerita 'Stepmom'..cerita Julia Roberts jadi stepmom tu..Ana kata cara tu cute..boleh tiru tak?eisyk..nanti Ana cakap dia tak kreatif pulak..mulut Ana tu kadang2 pedas jugak..

Sebaliknya Ana jadi semakin keliru..ari tu, masa mak cerita ada org dtg merisik, Ana buat2 muka malu..kan org2 tua cakap , malu tandanya mahu?waktu itu, hatinya kuat menyatakan pasti Ismihan dalangnya..mmg Ana suka kena risik..lg suka bila pikirkan dia dh nak kawin..lagi2 suka kalau Ismihan yang jadi pasangannya..for the first time Ana rasa macam dikhianati suara hatinya sendiri..macam mana boleh silap ni?kalau Ana cakap kat mak, Ana nk cancel dgn org yg dtg ari tu sbb nk terima Ismihan, agak2 mak marah tak?sebab baru semalam mak call org tu cakap Ana setuju..pas tu Ana pandai2 pulak sokong plan Ismihan dtg merisik weekend ni!! aduh...kusutnya!!! apa nak buat ni?

Bila Ana sampai di pejabat, Lia belum datang lagi..eisyk budak ni, time org urgent nk cakap dgn dia laa, dia dtg lambat..Ana rasa serba tak kena .. habis diconteng-contengnya kertas di atas meja..sebaik Lia menjengah muka ke dlm bilik itu, cepat2 Ana tarik Lia ke pantri..sesak nafas Ana bercerita kat Lia..kalau boleh semuanya nk diucapkan dlm satu nafas..habis Ana bercerita, Lia terus terduduk..

"Kan aku dh cakap..ko dgn Ismihan mesti ada apa2..korg saje je nk cover...kawan je konon..haa skrg mcm mana?kata kawan je..alih2 nk dtg merisik pulak..apa hal?" marah Lia

"eisyk budak ni...org tgh stress, saje je nk menambah stress..",marah Ana dlm hati..

"Jangan la marah aku..kot ye pun nk marah, tunggu la lepas benda ni setel" ,rayu Ana

Lia menggeleng kepala..benda yg sepatutnya simple dh jadi complicated..kalau la awal2 lg diorg talk abt their relationship..kan ke senang?now dh ada 3rd party..tah sape2 pulak tu..Ana ni..nasib baik la ko ni org..kalau ko teddy bear aku..mmg dh lama aku hempuk2 ke dinding..marah Lia dalam hati..

ok..abis dh part 3..apa diorg nk buat ni?

cepat teka!!