stress attack..again

i hv to admit , my workload is piling up..sometimes i felt like i overworked..
teringin nak amik cuti n go somewhere else, tapi sebut je pasal cuti, my staff dah buat muka cuak..i know they r having a hard time arranging my appointments..

the other day, somebody told me im being sensitive...well, im stress with my workload and my hormones are not quite balanced at the moment, so do u mind?

at times i geram jugak...i lagi geram sebab i cant express out what and how i feel..u know times like when ppl usik2 u until u cannot tahan, or when ppl potong masa u tengah cakap, or when ppl said they understand u when in real fact, they didnt even have a clue..u feel like standing up and shout "STOP IT!! " but u cant, instead u forced urself to smile or u cut the conversation short with "okla, eh dh lambat, nk tdo ' or 'ok..ok ..eh ada keja la'..obviously tht r lame excuses ..u dont fight back coz u think its inappropriate, rude and u dont want to hurt others' feelings.. n yet u r jeopardizing ur own...sigh..

Hani been telling me again and again ," speak up !! let ppl know how u feel "

cannot la Hani... i was told by Lina ( who was told by her superior at work) ..if u r stress, it would b better if u can keep it to urself..coz if u let it out to someone, there's possibility u r going to make tht people stress too..n then, u r going to ruin 2 ppl's work performance when it could have been only 1... it sounds mean, but it is also true..

this is sick..i am sick..arghhhhh